Today

So, I am new to blogging, I am not much of a writer and can not spell that well. The main reason I decided to start a blog is...well because I need some kind of way to communicate to people that do not know me. A little about myself, My name is Courtney, I'm 20 years old and live in Ca with my boyfriend, two dogs and one rat. I attend school every night and currently have no job besides school. I am one of those people that gets sick constantly, not cold sick, but three surges and kidney infection sick...lucky me. I recently, about 2 months ago found out that I am border line diabetic and also I have hypothyroid...yet again I would like to stay...Lucky me. The weirdest part of my medical history is, not either of my parents or sibling ever get sick or are close to the crappy health that I am in, they are all healthy. So I wonder why me, I am the daughter that works out, three times a week for a hour each day, I do not eat sugars or over eat, I AM NOT EVEN FAT!!! well that doesn't have to do anything with my health issues but just my first reaction, I am not fat fat, I am 5'7 and weight 190...the part that gets to me is I, no matter how hard I work out or try, I can not lose weight.

To my shock, today I was told that Gastric Bypass was the only way that I could rid myself of these health issues.....WTF. After the hour spent talking to my doctor about "going under" it seems that it is my only option. To admit, I'm so scared, coming home having to tell my boyfriend that I have to get Gastric Bypass was the worst, most embarrassing thing in my life. As I told him what happened in the doctors office, crying in front of the man I love, thinking that he is going to walk out the door, he simply said "okay we will deal with this, its okay, I love you" I just started crying harder and he held me until I could not cry anymore. Thus proving that he does love me for me and I couldn't be happier to be in love with this amazing man.
I'm 20 years old, in six months I am having Gastric Bypass.
I'm so scared.